I drank water. I got some sun as I worked in my yard. But my emotions, complicated as they are, stirred strong within me.

I’ve entered a complicated phase of life. But I still long to spend the rest of my time on this earth doing what God has planned for me to do. “You are His workmanship (Connie), created in Christ Jesus for good works which God prepared beforehand that you should walk in them.” Eph. 2:10

I miss my sweet granddaughters and grandsons, not to mention our children! And we were set to visit them but suddenly changed our plans. My husband tells me to quit overthinking it, but I can’t seem to do that. There were definite reasons that we changed our plans to visit our children. Neither of us felt it was the right time. We were trying to “make it happen”. But when the day arrived and we were NOT getting on the plane, I experienced a sadness that gripped me in such a way that I couldn’t breathe. Seriously….could not get my breath. And I questioned our decision not to go once again.

“Trust Me, lean into Me”, I hear my Saviour say. And my reply is, “Yes, Lord.”

I spent the day in our yard (my favorite place to go when I need to think and be still with God), and all I could think of – all I could remember – was when I spent time in their yards last May. I miss them, Lord.

And I knew that not going meant I might have more time with my grandsons…maybe in their yard? Or in ours. I’m forever hopeful. “Train a child up in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart from it.” Prov. 22:6

God, I thank you for allowing us to be important and present in our grandchildrens’ lives. Being “mom” and now “nana” has been Your greatest gift to me.

As I worked in my yard today, I heard the disturbed, warning chirping of the birds. It was then that I stopped and realized that they had built a nest in my porch “decor”! And this is where you spoke to me. “Stand, child. I am still with you.”

“There is no good thing that the Lord withholds from those who walk uprightly.” Ps. 84:11. It’s His promise. And I’m standing and believing.

Whatever you are going through today, I pray that you, too, will search for, lean into and stand in the promises of God. He is faithful, and He loves you.

~Blessings,

Connie